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What has happened to me just goes to show that you never know what type of person you are meeting whether it is online or in person.
After a couple of conversations with Mark I felt that he was not someone I wanted to be with. He was already planning out taking me to CA the end of August, meeting my kids before taking me out, taking my kids for bike rides, having to "share" me with my boss...etc. You can say it freaked me out. All of this was said in less than a week. Today he called work and my boss answered the phone. I was on another line. He eventually starts asking my boss about me!!! How out of line was that? He wanted to talk to me but my boss told him I was away from my desk. I got a call a few minutes later and had to go get my daughter from school because she is sick. It is a 10 minute drive from her school to my house. He called once while I was in the school and 4 times while I was taking care of J. He left a message with the last call. I had sent him an email earlier telling him that I don't believe it would work out based upon some things he had said. He sent me a response basically telling me that is not what he said but he will not bother me again. At this point I'm scared. To call me as much as he was and then to just leave me alone? As far as I know he doesn't know where I live and doesn't know my last name. I pray he holds true to his word. I've never really been afraid of a man like this. I didn't do anything wrong. :(

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