What has happened to me just goes to show that you never know what type of person you are meeting whether it is online or in person. After a couple of conversations with Mark I felt that he was not someone I wanted to be with. He was already planning out taking me to CA the end of August, meeting my kids before taking me out, taking my kids for bike rides, having to "share" me with my boss...etc. You can say it freaked me out. All of this was said in less than a week. Today he called work and my boss answered the phone. I was on another line. He eventually starts asking my boss about me!!! How out of line was that? He wanted to talk to me but my boss told him I was away from my desk. I got a call a few minutes later and had to go get my daughter from school because she is sick. It is a 10 minute drive from her school to my house. He called once while I was in the school and 4 times while I was taking care of J. He left a message with the last call. I had sent him an email earlier telling him that I don't believe it would work out based upon some things he had said. He sent me a response basically telling me that is not what he said but he will not bother me again. At this point I'm scared. To call me as much as he was and then to just leave me alone? As far as I know he doesn't know where I live and doesn't know my last name. I pray he holds true to his word. I've never really been afraid of a man like this. I didn't do anything wrong. :(
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...