I learn more and more each day just how little I'm thought of. I'm 54 years old...almost 55. I own a home. I've been on my own for decades. I do believe I can take care of myself and function as an adult. Apparently, I have friends who believe otherwise. I have family who believes otherwise. I'm told to make sure clothes are completely dry before taking them out of the dryer. I'm told how to do dishes. I'm told how to cook. I'm told how to clean. I'm told to call a contractor because there is a leak in my kitchen. I'm told I'm told I'm told. FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS SACRED!!!! I am NOT stupid. I am not lacking in brain cells. I still have all of my faculties but yet I'm considered special needs by those who say they love me.
I want to get one thing clear...yes, I'm losing my memory and it does take me a bit more time to do something but I can still remember how to care for my home and get things done. Guess what? We just had a major snowstorm and there is a lot of heavy snow on my roof. I'm going to get a snow rake to remove it because I don't want a disaster with a roof collapsing. Gee...how did I ever think of that on my own without someone telling me to do it? Seeing how I'm special needs and all.
And people wonder why I stick to myself....
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...