Crap!!!!!!! I got the totally wrong CD today for a single woman. I got Harry Con*ick Jr. For the love of pete that man can sing. I will listen to it this once and I think it needs to be saved for when I get a boyfriend. It may be awhile before this CD is listened to again. LOL This is one most definately best listened to at night, with a glass of wine and a gorgeous man beside me. *sigh* One day...:) I'm too picky...that is my problem. But the way I see it...why settle for second rate? I want someone I am attracted to mentally, emotionally and physically. I fully believe that if one or two of those are missing...the relationship will falter. No doubt in my mind. There are some definate prospects but I'm not jumping the gun (or into bed) with any of them. I respect myself too much to do either of those. :) I went and looked at another house today. It was cute and had definate potential. It would take some work to get it totally updated but once that was done....very nice. I have yet to go inside though. I did like the yard and area it is in. Lots of room for my kids to play and just be kids without trash mouthed neighbors and gossip. Hey what a concept!!! Letting a kid be a kid. Gotta love it. We will see what the inside looks like and I'll take it from there. It's fun going out and looking for something though. Scary though doing it as a single and not a married. But hey...if I can survive the garbage I've gone through in my life...I can definately handle this.
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...