Well it's Saturday and you will be happy to know...I passed one portion of my stupid exam. The other 1/2...missed it by one. I am less than pleased but seeing how I am still miserably sick...I did pretty well. Only thing to complain about is having to pay AGAIN to take the stupid thing. Only have to pay $55 this time instead of $70 like the last 2 times. Good grief...it's a good thing I'm getting a raise after this. These stupid allergies are just killing me!!! I had to cancel my dinner "date" and I was not happy about that. I so wanted to see him. He understood though and hopefully we can get together in a couple of weeks. Life has been quite frankly...boring. LOL I like it. :) No guy problems, no phoney friend problems, no money problems...it's nice. I did see Troy yesterday. Saw him at Wally World. We chatted for awhile and he said he would call but I know better. He has a tendency to be a recluse and will only call if someone leaves him a message on his machine. It's ok though. I'm sure we will always be good friends. I have no problem with that at all. :) I did give him grief about how cheap he was when we were dating....LOL He fully agreed he was a cheapskate...but then again...we were only 18 years old. Seems like a lifetime ago. Oh wait...it was!!! He is still as cute as ever. ;)
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...