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I have 2 more days. Two days to study and stress about this stupid exam. Everyone has complete faith that I will pass. Everyone but me. There is a lot riding on this stupid exam. One...I will be able to do more for my boss. Two...I get a nice healthy raise after I get my license. That is just for starters. The whole thing has me all wigged out. One of the other assistants gave me some pointers and she said if I do that I will be fine. Well that and pray before I go inside the building. I need God's peace for this.
BTW...where did Spring go? It's cold out and snow is in the forecast. I am less than pleased. LOL I want to start planting and getting my yard all pretty. I bought a gorgeous gazebo and I want to get it set up. I found a catalog with some really reasonable prices in it for seeds and plants. I like reasonable prices. So come payday...I'm a flower ordering genius. Think I was going to say I'm a fool? Heck no...a fool would pay stupidly high prices. I won't do that. Just call me thrifty. :)

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