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It has been a fantastic day!!! I shall tell you why...ready? First...went to the landfill and got rid of 160 pounds of crap. Exciting huh? Ok...not really but it gets better. Took a drive around the valley looking at houses and what is on the market, went out for lunch, got my hair cut and WOW...it looks great!!! I forgot how good my hair can look when it's layered. LOL I'll post pics from my birthday get together which is next weekend. :) Did some more driving looking at houses, found one and looked at it...I shudder to think that they are selling the piece of crap and for $70,500!!! It was horrible!!! I stopped at my boss' house and visited with him and his wife for awhile. Here is where the really cool part comes in. I went to Saf*way for some groceries. They were having a Grand Re-opening and the sales were great. I got over $30 in groceries for $16. I like those kind of sales. Anyway...while the checker was scanning my stuff he looked at me smiling and said "You just won a DVD player". HUH??? Are you serious? Yep. They were randomly giving out DVD players to customers who were checking out. So...I got some great stuff for dinner AND a DVD player...for only $16. It has been a great day. :) Now J and I are watching Veggietales. I love those shows. Crack me up. :) I shall sleep well tonight.

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