Life as I know it...

I would love to move out of this place!!! Not so much my home because it's starting to look nice but out of the park I'm in. The only nice people I've come across are the elderly neighbors. J's friends mom and dad are cool though. I really want to move. I know there are jerks everywhere but to have a lot of them concentrated in one spot? Don't like it. My prayer has been for God to bring the opportunity along that will allow us to move. It doesn't even have to be out of this town...although that would be nice. As long as I'm this close to a certain someone...I know that the tensions will always be there. Especially with the kids being at the bus stop together. It never ends and it's getting old. We just need to get away from her and all that involves her. One day...it's all in God's hands.

I did have an interesting chat on IM last night. As to whether all of it is true...that I'm not too sure of. A good portion of it though...confirmation of everything I believed to be true. Even though I should have ignored the IM....my curiosity got the better of me as to what he wanted. Well I found out and it just made me even more relieved that things turned out the way they did. Well...time to get my butt in gear. It's a work day ya know....;)

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