Remember my dating question a few weeks ago? Well I was thinking today and I don't want to be someone who goes out with a guy just for the free dinner. I want to be totally interested in him...which I was not for the $60 Outb*ck fiasco. I was talked into going out by the person who is dating him now. *rolling my eyes* I've done the dating just to go out for dinner and have some fun. I want more than that. I've realized I want someone who is willing to accept me for who I am and as sad as this sounds...who is willing to spend money on me. My last relationship...we all know how that went...was with a self proclaimed cheapskate. Ask him...he will tell you. LOL I'm sorry but spending $60 on me is not enough to get my attention much less get me into bed. If a man wants me...he is going to have to work for it. I will not be a $60 whore. :) I'm more expensive than that. LOL Am I going to end up alone? Maybe. But why would I settle for processed cheese when I can hold out for the Brie? Hmmm....answer me that. ;)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...