I'm done chasing IP addresses. I have realized it's not worth it anymore. If Kim has no life and needs to maintain some semblance of contact with me...let her. It has become clear to me that she is still reading this but using Laine to get to me. I don't really think Laine visits my blog multiple times a day. LOL In all honesty...I don't care who reads this anymore. My friends read it to keep up with me and my life. My enemies read it for what they say is "to get a good laugh". I find that difficult to believe. What I believe it is...they are nosy and can't live their own lives without me being part of it. Interesting since they are the ones who ended the friendships to begin with. I must have made some lasting impression on them for them to continually seek me out in whatever way they can. So...IP chasing is done and IP banning is done. I won't sink to their level anymore and will maintain my dignity and pride. I'm better than they are and I will hold my head high for taking the higher road. :) Are ya proud of me, Bean? It was an ephiany this morning...LOL
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...