Life as I know it...

You know what is really funny and quite possibly the most pathetic thing I have seen in a very long time? The statistics I get regarding this blog. You see...I have it set up to tell me how many people visit my blog, what date, time and now many times they visit. It also tells me the IP address and ISP. The funny part...the one person who hates me more than anyone on this planet has visited my blog TWICE tonight in a 1/2 hour time span. I love being the center of someone's universe. It's almost unnerving but yet flattering at the same time. If only that person was Gerard Butler. He is someone who matters. :) Now for the really cool part of my statistic tool...I can ban IP addresses. I guess I will find out tomorrow if it actually works. :) Sometimes I just amaze myself...LOL If Ronna has been reading...I'll be able to ban her also. I love internet tools. They can serve a very nice purpose sometimes.

Chatted with a couple of friends tonight and so far there are going to be at least 10 of us going out for my birthday. Dinner, dancing and heaven forbid...a couple of the girls want to do karaoke. I shall pass on the singing but I can't wait to go dancing. I haven't gone out since the week before Thanksgiving of last year. I'm about due for an adult night. When all of us get together...you never know what is going to happen. It's so cool still being friends with people you went to high school with. We are older but we are still the silly goof ball kids we were 20 years ago. Well you too Bean. Then again...Sabrina is the quiet one out of the two of us. We may be mirror images of each other but she is the more reserved...in most instances. LOL Right Sabrina?

BTW Sabrina...I moved my venting blog. Seems that someone just can't seem to stay away from needing to know what is going on in my life. I'll email the link to you. Good grief...

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