I've been told that ignorance is bliss. If this is true...there are a few people I know who much be ecstatic!!! Good grief...how do they get through their lives? *rolling my eyes* Tigger commented as to the "friends" I have who seem to need to read my blog...she said they must be masochistic. I have to agree with her. LOL I know if someone were saying things about how pissed they are at me...I certainly wouldn't want to know. Sabrina said "That is someone who only thinks of themselves." She used another 2 words...now what were they? Oh yeah...SELF ABSORBED!!! I mentioned in my venting blog that I need to move. It's becoming more and more evident that I need to get out of here. Yesterday a friend of whats her names drove by my place. Considering I'm WAY out of the way and in the back of the park I live in and K is in the front...there was no reason for her to be back here. I have a gut feeling that when I do move...Kim is going to do everything she can to find me. I wonder why she is so fascinated by me and what I'm doing? It's plain she hates me. So my suggestion would be...get a life!!! Because she certainly won't ever be a part of mine again. Like I said...I need to move and get completely away from her. As long as I live this close to where she is...I won't be able to forget how horrible she was to me.
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...