I don't like Monday's. I think that all Monday's should be banned. I have found that there is nothing good that happens on Monday's. I did find another house that I plan on driving by after work. It's not large by any stretch of the imagination but...it has almost 1 1/2 acres of land that it's on. This means I could add on to it in a couple of years. Question is...can the girls and I live with a small house for 2 years? It has 2 bedrooms and 1 bathroom. That 1 bathroom thing would have to change before they become teenagers. Guaranteed!!! I'm thinking a really nice master suite with a cool master bath added on. Ya gotta look outside of the box when considering these things. :) With that much land K could have her critters, we could have a garden and a nice deck to grill and enjoy the solitude (a word from POTO thank you very much...sorry but I had to throw it in...LOL). The place has some serious potential. It's just a matter of living very cozy for awhile. The girls would have to share a bedroom and after finishing up K's room...I would feel horrible about it. Anyway...I'll know more after I drive by it today. I may be worrying over nothing. LOL
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...