Well I'm almost done with the painting. :) I have one more coat to do on the walls and a coat or two on the dresser. The closet does need to be finished up but that will happen next week...since our wonderful state decided to send my child support for J to her fathers ex wife. So...the woman got WAY more than she should have this month. I was less than pleased. Think she would be decent enough to let me know? Nah. But then again...didn't really expect anything nice from her anyway. J's father did send in an extra payment to support enforcement so I should be getting the money in a few days. There are days I just hate our state's system. So...once I get some money I will be getting the quart of black paint I need to finish the closet. By next Sunday K's room will be done. :) Decorations, bed, paint, lighting...all of it. I'm excited to see how it will look. I'll post some pics once it's done. The before and after shots. The next project? My room. Thank heaven that only needs paint. Life is so calm and peaceful now. It's nice having my life back to it's normal routine. There have been some scary medical things happen in my friends lives that have me worried but with God's grace...they will be strong and pull through all of it. Oh who am I kidding? Both of these friends are unbelievably strong women and I am blessed to have them as friends and they allow me to be part of their lives. God sometimes throws curves into your life and even though we are angry at the situation....He always shows you the brighter side of the dark. I experienced that full force this past week. I may have been angry at the situation but I'm pleased at being reminded of what is honest and true. I really pray I don't need God's 2x4 again. That is really starting to hurt. LOL
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...