All is well in my little corner of the world. My gazebo is done and looking very pretty. I bought a bunch of flowers this evening and the girls and I planted them by my front porch. They look really nice. I planted petunias so you kow they will take over eventually. K wanted to plant some marigolds so we got a few of those also. A pretty pink & white with a splash of yellow scene will grace my front porch this summer. Now for the rest of the yard. LOL Camping season is on it's way. We have been invited by a few friends to go with them this summer. I'm living for going with Tina and Les. Les and I are at each other non-stop with harassing and slamming each other. It's all in fun but every once in awhile I'll get a good one in on him and he is speechless. I LOVE it when that happens. Nothing like puffing up when you render a man speechless...get your mind out of the gutter for heaven's sake. ;) BTW...Les is Tina's husband and I went to high school with Tina. We reconnected at the reunion and have remained close ever since. It's going to be a GREAT summer. :)
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...