It's almost 4:00 and I'm doing some resting before we head out for dinner. So far today has been a good one. Even Darren sent me birthday wishes and he hopes I have a wonderful day. My birth mother sent me an email but it was just a forward. As strained as our relationship is..and believe me when I say I'm being very generous when I say relationship...I'm surprised she even sent me anything. Margaret and I hit The Lighthouse and I got a beautiful hunter green velvet dress for the holidays...I'm always thinking ahead and for only $1.00 it was worth it, I got the top I woke up thinking about this morning, a classic little black dress (what every woman needs in her closet) and a couple of things for the girls. Then we went grocery shopping at Margaret's insistence. Again...another birthday gift from her. I have to say...none of what Margaret has done for me was asked for. This is just the type of person she is. Very giving and very loving when it comes to her friends. She is the type of person who would give the shirt off her back if someone needed it. She did give me a cool ribbon that says "39 Forever"...of which I plan on remaining. I won't turn 40. Just not an option. LOL Margaret is a good person and I wish everyone could have a friend like her. I've said it before and I'll say it again...I am blessed to have her in my life. Not because she gives me gifts, which by the way is only on special occasions, but because she will listen to me and give me an honest to goodness truthful opinion of what she thinks is happening. No sugarcoating at all. She definately will not tell me what she thinks I want to hear. It's the flat out truth and nothing less. Actually...all of my friends are that way. Sometimes I wish they would marshmallow their thoughts...LOL....but I am thankful that they don't. Keeps me grounded. Now to go relax on the couch, finish my tea and then get ready for dinner and a night out. If today is any indication of tonight...it's going to be a great one. :)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...