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Sometimes I amaze even myself. Take tonight for instance. I went bowling with J. We bowled two games. My second game...well it sucked. I barely broke 100. My first game? I know you really want to know...Ok..I'll tell ya. 154 thank you very much!!!!!!! Hello!!! I have never bowled a 154. I can't wait to brag to Darren about that one. LOL I know..it's not much but I have to grab onto whatever I can when it comes to him. LOL Yes...we are getting along and are civil to each other. No...I'm not reading anything into it and don't want any kind of romantical relationship with him. That is dead and gone.
I went birthday shopping tonight and amazed myself even more. I got a cute pair of short dress pants (the type that look like gauchos from the 70's), a nice cashmere/wool blend sweater and two purses. Pants...orig $36/I paid $2.99, sweater...orig $36/I paid $2.99, purses orig $50 each/I paid $4.99 each. Am I good or what??????? Sometimes it's just scary how good my shopping skills are. LOL

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